I've been able to see the sun set four days in a row.
I've picked flowers and seen blossoms on cherry trees.
I've seen men with dogs and babies sitting outside reading books.
Sure, exams are a week away and I won't have time to read all the books I'm supposed to read.
Sure, I still haven't found a summer job and it seems like I'm not meant to get one.
And sometimes, just sometimes, you catch yourself wanting things you can't have.
Shit happens.
But now summer's coming.
The sun is shining
- and life is good...
no... that's only true half of the time.
Understanding that life is good only half the time is a gateway to understanding that half the time is better than none of the time. Day and Night.
ReplyDeleteAnd as for the wanting, I found a piece of religious rhetoric that I like for describing want.
Ask, and you shall recieve.
It's not that life is bad half the time, life is always good, at least for me. I'm always happy. Unless I think too much.
ReplyDeleteDuring the day I'm just happy and life is great. Pulling the curtains apart, seeing the sunshine. "It's a beautiful day and it's good to be alive." I can't explain why, it's just something that happens when summer comes.
During the evening and the night when the sun doesn't shine the summer doesn't strike you like it does during the day. I start thinking a bit more, I log on to check my email and it's dark outside. Like I wrote in another post, something the Swedish prime minister said about why people are more depressed during winter;
"It is mainly about the light.
It comes late,
but now it has come."
Life isn't bad at all, far from it. During the days I feel that pure joy that we think only children can feel - joy just to be alive and be allowed to play all day. It's a wonderful feeling and it's the purest thing I know of. I just want to enjoy it now before I become a real grown up and get too cynical and busy to feel it.
Life isn't bad half of the time. It just isn't wonderful as in 'bouncing around feeling happy just to be alive'.
- And Raine, I'll try asking. I never ask for something if I want it, I just try to get it on my own. I can take care of myself :) There are, however, some things you just can't have no matter how much you ask.
And sometimes you realize you've gotten just what you asked for. Be careful, very careful, what you ask for. It might just come true.