Some times we have to make difficult choices. Choices we are reluctant to make because they challenge fundamental believes inside of us. They change hopes and dreams. Some times we have to choose between a fantasy and what we can realistically achieve. Fantasies and dreams can come true, but you have to work for them. Someone has to make the first move. And when you hesitate you may lose your chance. The only chance you're ever given.
So we chose.. we choose what is safe. We carefully place one stone onto another as we build our lives here on Earth. We place our stones one next to the other, horizontally. We build houses, little houses of our stones, not big towers standing tall. Not like we used to. We've forgotten our castles in the sky.
It's part of growing up, they say. They don't call it 'losing hope'.They no longer remember their dreams as anything other than fantasies, thought up by an overactive mind in an unrealistic child. It's easier to deal with silly fantasies than broken dreams.
It can be anything ... buying one apartment because you don't know if the one you're dreaming of even exists. Taking a job you don't really want because those you do are impossible to find. Choosing to go with the guy who tells you he likes you, because the one who makes you tingle never said a word. Choosing a small town life over a city because not even the city is big enough to hold all your dreams.
How long do you give it? How long does the single woman wait to have the child she longs for? How long do you wait for 'the one'? When do you know it's now or never, when have you had enough? How do you know? How do you know it's time to knock over your tower, to start laying your stones down, one next to the other?
When you reach for the stars you may tumble and fall. And the way back down is long and hard. Broken dreams are hard to deal with, so we rationalize. We choose differently to avoid getting hurt. To avoid wasting time waiting for something which might not even be real.
What about the guy who says he likes you and the job you don't really want? Long term those might be the smartest choices you ever made. Short term ... you'd rather have the tingle and the fun.
Maybe our dreams 'breaking' is what it takes for us to see the future. To accept it. To embrace happiness over insecurity. A way to force us to examine reality and take our dreams for what they are ... just dreams.
We choose to change. And we do so by telling ourselves we have no choice. But like a flower turning away from the sun we too will wither and die without the light and the hope our dreams bring.
It's easier to deal with silly fantasies than broken dreams. They both tell us something about ourselves; the fantasies who we are. the dreams who we were.